Bad Habit

1:15 am. A slice of pizza, a bottle of C2 (which I bought from the Filipino store), a bar of chocolate, and a computer.

Wednesday - I was very much aware that I had to wake up early the next day, since my routine would be out of the ordinary. And so I tried as best as I could to sleep early. Well, I better try harder. I did sleep, like at 10pm, but woke up after half an hour and wasn't able to sleep until 2 in the morning. I kept on walking around, restless and frustrated by the fact that when I needed to sleep the most, I wasn't able to do so. And yet I had to wake up early, work 'til late, and go home and work some more to meet deadlines. Thanks to international business and internet commerce, now a regular work day is now 12 hours instead of 8 hours. You need to stay at least 4 hours more to make your time meet with your business partners around the world. And should you be lucky enough to have your work accomplished, then your 12 hour work day is over, which unfortunately wasn't the case for me yesterday.

Thursday - As I said, I woke up at 7, which gave me 5 hours of sleep. I was in the office from 8am-9pm, which is a 13 hour work day. Had to go home but had to meet a deadline - it's the last day of the work week for our business partners in Malaysia and in China. I had to stay up until 3 in the morning. It was a really, really long day.

Friday - I had to make sure I met at least 7 hours of sleep; it was just a struggle to be able to meet that. Not being able to sleep on time, it kept me waking up every so often. Essentially that 7 hours of sleep was not the kind of rest anyone would want to have. But I went through my day - skipped gym since I'd be so late from work, worked til 10, and when I came home, I tried as best as I can to sleep the rest of the night of. I did. Once again, however, I woke up. I had to get out of my bed since I woke up being really hungry. And so that's how it all came in to place: a slice of pizza, a bottle of green tea, and a chocolate bar. And a computer - the one that has been keeping me up lately, but is also the one that has kept me company all this time.

Definitely this sleeping habit that I'm beginning to develop is a bad one. I'm not sure as to the causes - stress, fatigue, or what may have you - but I do hope the Lord cures me from this. I pray that He gives me the peace when I sleep and the rest that my weary soul and body so much needs and longs for.